10 Months After the Camp Fire – My Big Breakdown

I have to be honest… it’s been a rough summer for me.

I thought losing my stuff, my house, and my entire town in the fires in November would be the hardest part of the past 12 months.

Turns out, I was wrong.

That’s actually the problem. When the fire happened I saw it as an inconvenience at the time.

My family and I had nowhere to live.

We lost everything we own since we didn’t have time to evacuate.

And we had no insurance since we were in a “fire zone”. Ironic right?

But just 6 weeks after the fire we were moving into our new house a town over. I found a daycare for my son. My husband started working again. And everything seemed to be okay.

But my business wasn’t running the way it was before the fire.

No matter how much I tried to make things work… I couldn’t. And it made no sense to me.

I lost my house, so I got a new one.

I lost my office, so I got a new one.

I shouldn’t have to change anything, I thought to myself…

But this summer everything came crashing down around me.

All the trauma from the fire began to consume me. And I would cry when I thought of my town that was reduced to ashes.

The highlights of the day began to flash in my consciousness of wondering if my husband was dead or ever going to be able to get out of the fire and meet with our son and me.

The memories of my community, my friends, what life was supposed to be were overwhelming me.

But I had to just keep going, I told myself.

I can’t change the past, I thought, just keep moving forward.

But my business wouldn’t let me move forward.

I kept adding stress, pressure, goals to my list.

I filled my days with marketing, sales, personal development to “fix” the problems in my business that didn’t exist until after the fire.

Yet, it never dawned on me that my business wasn’t the problem. It was me.

So last month, I had a breakdown.

The tears felt like they were never going to end. 

And then I cleared off my plate completely.

If you’ve been on my list for a while you may notice that I stopped offering complimentary sessions. Truth is, I don’t have the bandwidth for them right now.

I am also only offering my private or group sessions at certain times of the year (HINT: This October after a much needed week in Cabo). 

And I removed multiple obligations off my plate so that I can do the minimum and still take care of myself and my family.

I LOVE to teach people about weight, food, and movement. So you will see a lot more of that. (Super excited about a FREE 5-day challenge coming this October to help people stick to their weight loss habit changes).

And I love working with people who are ready to transform and fix their issues with weight and food permanently. 

To my tribe, thanks for riding this ride with me. And I can’t wait to keep serving you in the way that works for both of us.

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About The Author

Michelle Hastie

Michelle Hastie Thompson is a recovered binge eater who turned her binge eating around and even got featured in Shape Magazine helping a woman lose weight in “My Weight Loss Diaries". She helps women end the battle of binge and overeating, fall in love with movement, and finally lose the weight permanently. A veteran weight loss coach for almost ten years, she is a Ph.D. student in Health Psychology and has three published books, the most recent titled, "Have Your Cake and Be Happy Too: A Joyful Approach to Weight Loss”.