Equal parts weight loss and music

Entrepreneurship…You make your own hours… you can work from anywhere. You get to choose your clients and create your own pricing.

It all sounds like a dream come true. I am not hear to say that entrepreneurship doesn’t have huge perks, trust me, it does. There are some things however that nobody tells you…

I used to be a personal trainer at a corporate gym. My days were filled with doing what I loved; making sales and training clients. When I wasn’t training you could find me being active in or outdoors and playing or writing music.

I made more money than I needed. I never worried about paying my bills or getting enough clients. I often treated people to meals, bought myself something if I wanted it. I felt grounded… happy. Full of life and passion.

Around my 2 year mark I had an incredibly challenging and even somewhat corrupt manager and decided to leave the company and begin my own personal training business. Do things my way without someone breathing down my neck.

It was scary… and exciting….

At first things were great… I had clients, they paid me each month and I easily received referrals. I even had people reach out to me from google which was shocking since my website was definitely juvenile.

After about a year I was getting the itch… to expand… to grow… to do something different. Not to mention… the clients weren’t flowing in anymore. I started researching business ownership. And this is where the chaos began.

People were quitting, referrals slowed down. And for the first time in my life I found myself unsure of how to meet my next bill.

I started panicking about getting new clients. I also knew I wanted to add weight loss coaching to my services. I had been studying it, practicing it and loving it even more than fitness.

So I set on the journey of figuring out, “How to get more clients, make more money and have a thriving business.” A headline that every entrepreneur has come across at some point in their business.

This headline comes loaded with empty promises, cookie cutter formulas and thrives on people in desperate places ready to make emotional and desperate buying decisions.

I didn’t have much debt and plenty of open credit. Everyone said you needed to spend money to make money so I did. I bought books, programs, coaching, you name it.

My days were spent marketing to get clients, reading about business, panicking about bills. Not to mention all of my deeper wounds and stories came creeping up.

“You’re not good enough!”

“Who are you to run a successful business or be a leader?”

“You must be the best, be known, be seen.”

My ego took over demanding that I be the next household name in the weight loss industry.

My desperate need to succeed, to, “Hit six figures”, to always be selling, always be marketing took over.

I rarely picked up my guitar, or sang, or wrote a new song.

Instead of passion leading me I was led by the need to succeed. To be seen.

It didn’t help that marketers tell you they can help you, “Be seen” and, “Be a star in your industry”.

I fell right into their traps.

$1,000 here… $7,000 there….  my credit cards were quickly approaching their max.

And finally at $30,000 they hit their max.

I had more business and marketing knowledge than most people in business school.

With less clients and less money than I ever had in my life.

There was no way I was going to get a job though. That would be admitting defeat. That would make me a failure. Or so I thought.

But the funny thing is everyone that knows me, knows I am equal parts weight loss and music.

I live for teaching holistic weight loss and playing/listening/singing music.

And it was gone. I was gone. I lost myself in my business.

And the more I lost myself the harder I tried to market. The harder I tried to succeed.

It wasn’t long before I teamed up with a business coach to be their right hand woman. And I was right back where I started. Working with someone who was incredibly challenging and even somewhat corrupt.

And I fell farther and farther into the rabbit hole. Not only was my music gone but I even agreed to teach business over weight loss.

I made more money than I ever made before. I had a steady flow of clients to work with. And I never felt less like myself.

I had to get out. I had to get a job. And it was the best thing I ever did.

I’ve been on the path of finding myself ever since. But not because I don’t know who I am.

I know exactly who I am… I always have. I just forgot for a while.

I’m equal parts weight loss and music.

And therefore I am happy to call myself something else these days.

Am I an entrepreneur?

Who knows… Technically I have no employer. I still do what I love. Still make my own hours.

I allow other companies to give me clients. To give me work. They pay me what they want to pay me. They charge their clients what they want to charge their clients.

I might make less money… for now… I do believe it’s temporary.

I don’t market much at all. I don’t work hard at growing my business.

I show up fully for my clients. I am present with my family and friends. And I am finding myself again.

Equal parts weight loss and music. It’s who I am. And I guess, “Entrepreneur” simply doesn’t fit for now.


About The Author

Michelle Hastie

Michelle Hastie Thompson is a recovered binge eater who turned her binge eating around and even got featured in Shape Magazine helping a woman lose weight in “My Weight Loss Diaries". She helps women end the battle of binge and overeating, fall in love with movement, and finally lose the weight permanently. A veteran weight loss coach for almost ten years, she is a Ph.D. student in Health Psychology and has three published books, the most recent titled, "Have Your Cake and Be Happy Too: A Joyful Approach to Weight Loss”.